Im never going to have kids and im never going to get married and there is probably a million other things that ill never do or have. Oncne i was told that i was going to be a godfather, but her husband didnt want her sone to be around a gay man so i lost that chance and that friend. But growing up in a house of girls were my older sister is 7 years older and your younger sister is 9 years younger, there isnt going to be a lot of chances to be an uncle. I have a nephew and i love him but i never got to be that cool uncle who he admired and played baseball and teach him how to talk to girls. I get people who call me for advice and to talk and i dont mind i love having that feeling that im needed and respected for my opinion. I get people wanting me to babysit and cook dinners and sometimes i get people wanting to borrow money. But I never get asked to be a godparent. Not that is high on my list of things I want to happen but being a Father is on my list. I want to be a Father i just dont want the kids to be mine, i guess I would like to be an uncle again, I also want to make things good with my nephew, growing up he hated me but i hope now that he is an adult we can be great friends.
With that said too im just putting it out there cause if i say it dosent bother im lying im just saving face. I grew up with woman no men. Then my mom got married again, and we got our little sister. Now if i get married i know that I want my sisters and mother to be part of the wedding, and if i were the bride I ask my mother to give me away or my Older sister.My little sister still has her dad so i know i wont get the chance to give her away even though she already said that if she gets married she ask me being her older brother. With that said ya. I love my sister and shes getting married, Shes asking her step Father to give her away, she dosent even like him. Me being her only brother thinks she should ask My Mother, not that i hope it would happen, but why not your only brother to give you away. I know im not the best looking person in the world but people know what i look like its not a shock. Im sorry im just in one of the moods. Im lonely and sad and wish i had someone to give me a big and and tell me that they love me. I dont even have any alchol to make these feeling go away.
Untill Next time bitches and you can quote me.
I do love you ricky and wish that i was there with you right now so that maybe i could buy you some wine and say something stupid just so that maybe you would crack a half ass smile. you know you can all me anytime you need to talk. I will always be there to listen and you are the uncle to any kids that me and prayash have.
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