Denial. Leave it be.

So I like to live in this little world called denial. Im not tring to turn this blog into a judgment condemning blog, its a lets do me a favor blog. People can do what they want, if it makes you happy feel free to do it and do it a little for me too. But i dont need to hear about it, I don't care how slutty he or she was or how easy it was to steal, or how curled you toes curled. I DON'T CARE. If i ask you several times not to tell me and you tell me pf course im going to be mad. I love that you trust me enough to tell me but your going to tell everyone else to so don't tell me. I dont do drugs and all my friends know this fact, I wish that they wouldn't but i cant make them do anything nor would i want to. But i ask that if they do not to tel me, one way or another im told and i back off. Here is why it bothers me. I live in this world of denial, i like to beleave that the people i love wouldn't turn to drugs, Ive seen what it does and it killed my father and it killed the relationship i had with him before he died. So basically people who don't smoke pot or snort crystal are glorified in my mind because they're better then my father, I hope this makes sense cause my reasons make sense to me at least. Im no saint but i do know im better then my dad ever was and ever wished he could be. My heart brakes every time some tells me that they want to get high or tells me that they're stoners. I cried for 3 days when my mother told me about her drug use, she is the one who talks more shit then me about my dad and his drug use. The only differnence between me and my mother is im no a hypocrite. So far ive met only a few people in my life who have never done drugs and I hope they stick with it. Also little sister i know your a grown ass person, but if your grown enough to do the stupid shit you do then your grown enough to deal with what happens and I don't care what you do or who you do it with but i don't want to know about it, and also keep it off of facebook cause i will help you and send it to everyone of out family members just in case they don't read you posts. STOP BEING STUPID AND STOP POSTING WHAT YOU DO ON FACEBOOK