The object of subjection...

..Is but a dream as i cause this scene to be unseen.

Perspectives. I know that you can not judge a book by its cover, I am the number one candidate for that little magik saying. So I have alot of time on my hands so Ive been doing a lot of what would be called facebook stalking. Ive found some old friends and made a few new ones. But im finding out lots of information and reminded of some old. Things that i buried to keep me sane, like when my ex cheated and I discovered some much info through my then connections and myspace page. Or the knowlage of him being traded during swinger sessions and the only reasons he let it happen was because that is what the boyfriend wanted. Or when I read about all the good and fun things that people are doing and im sitting at home blogging, or how i stay up most of the night because i dont have to get up early for anything. Or when i hear about peoples days at work(trust i ask my friends about their work) just so i can remember what its like to do something. It also Bothers me that if i were cute even by just a little bit more I could have a little but more of a chance at a better life. Well im tired of typing and nothing i say or do will ever help me through my issues.