I dont care how gay I sound when i say this but its true. Im listening to Some Were Over The Rainbow and im crying. I think about what life was what it is and what it could be. there has never been a set time of my life were i was happy, i had moments but nothing notebook worthy, and i wonder if im going to be happy. Do i stay and be by my self, were one friend calls me once a day and the other leaves me bitter remarks on facebook. With a famly who has their own lives to live and I usually spend my time alone scrap booking and singing to myself. To go to this far off land to be with a guy I have not seen in almost years, and im not sure if its a friend thing a lovers thing or if im going out there to be roomates with benifits. I want to be happy i wnat to be with someone who makes me happy and who i make happy, i want to have my friends coexist with eathother and have peacefull times together, and this is why i cry. I dont see any of that happening so get mad at me for saying SHOW ME what I mean to you. I just want to see that im wanted and not just someone you call when there is nothing else to do. I want my life to be at peace. I know thats a lot to ask me but i dont know how to make life changing choices, they start out good but always end up with a big fail stamp placed in a very noticeable spot. Before I get yelled at via Facebook, text message or phone conversation im not talking about anyone person, im talking about all of you so lets just leave it at that.